Lonely Night

1 is the magic number,
tonight i lack slumber
so i wonder
why on this night undercover
do i seek to be held by another,
happy with myself by myself
but i long to be held close by another
who is softer, my comforter
but not my blanket,
though i am kept warm by her,
her scent is like aromatherapy
relaxing every last particle in me.
where is she?
where could she be?
in her bed thinking of me?
laying awake just like me?
daydreaming of being in my arms,
snuggling under the heat with me?
unfortunately 1 is the magic number,
i alone,
she alone,
one specially
spiritually,
soulfully
designed for me.

the neo-soul tries to lullaby,
but i am wise to the disguise
of keeping my mind occupied
on what i do not have.
a lover here with me,
Jill Scott talking about her crown royal
and i rise to get a glass of moscato
wishing i was on the giving end,
the receiving end
of a glamorous diamond shining bright
in this darkness that i sit in,
wondering when,
when will it be my time to shine
with my bling bling on my arm,
not a rock
but a person worthy of singing love songs to me.
Chrisette Michelle is too far away,
i need someone closer
to whisper this kind of floetry to me,
my soul is on fire with desire,
i am hard wired for love to transpire,
my need is dire,
tonight i am the tagged crier,
i am it,
frozen by the touch of loneliness,
doomed to remember as i look to my left,
look to my right and see that
there is still emptiness.

Transluscent

It is as bright as translucent light
I have gotten a new sight
a vision of happiness
visions of jubilee
visions of glee
loud & tumultuous as the raging sea
I have given in to the plea
to live life lavishly
to laugh in agony
finding the humor in some of life philosophies
sum difficult & murky
others as deadly as scurvy
I used to b cliche
I once was topsy-turvy
God has revealed to me my secret
He has revealed to me my purpose
it took 36 years for me to give birth to this
throughout all that time I was a living witness
an active participant to all that transgressed
I thought my life was a mess
till I realized how I was truly blessed
spoiled royalty
getting all I desired but didn't know it
the camouflage cloaked it
the flesh uncovered it
I empowered it
I can see the conglomerate
it was a carpenter that built it
the nails were hammered to it
the cross was carried through it
I saw the light in darkness
where my soul was filled with carnage
the smiles release me from bondage

On a Distant Planet

I am floating slowly,
moving upward gradually,
looking down on the beautiful scenery that is earth,
I am moving upward above the clouds into the darkness,
into the firmament,
holding hands with the stars
gradually moving further from the planet.
My destination is planet Solo
where the image of you runs in slo-mo
through my mind incessantly,
here there's no space nor time,
our love is an in-kind donation to our hearts,
this is where we continue, w
here our love is forever and our embrace shall never part.
The landscape is the essence of beauty,
tall hanging greenery,
a vast floral scent & colors encompasses the hills and valleys,
the clear blue green waters of the oceans and lakes invite serenity.
There are butterflies of many hues
fluttering and whispering past our ears
and the birds are singing the ballads of love in a tranquil tune.
Welcome to your planet,
where the Sweet nectar from the fruits nourishes our physical bodies,
communication between you and I feeds our brains,
the soft warm flow of H2O cleanses in the form of rain.
We are in our romantic domain
where kisses & hugs are required
and where our hearts together remain!

Done Dirty

I can't believe this f_ckin bullshit, just this week I shelled out over a grip and last month I bought her a whip, and now she tryin to take me thru this shit, hell naw, she got it twisted thought I was gonna turn the other cheek after she got caught doin that ill shit, this ain't rhomper room I gots not time for that kiddie ish, on monday I'm going down to family court, she aint gonna try to play me with my kids, I already did a bid and aint no damn way I'm going another year and not be a father to my kids so she gonna have to hit the row like skids, fake ass bitch aint gonna take me through no baby mama drama shit!

Declaration

Every experience with you is a new rip in time & space, no matter where I am we are in the same place, we can take our time we are not running a race, you are the sweet icing on my cake, being with you is well worth the stakes, high or low, raw or well done you are like prime steak, pleasant to my site and taste, I want to be with you no matter if by text, by email, by phone, or within the special place within our intellectual states. No matter if we are in your place, in my place, on a snow covered mountain or in a light house of the cape, I desire to be alone with you, hugged up and cuddleing with you sitting by a warm fire or in the rain with you. I want to share all of my beautiful moments with you like tonights crescent moon under the bright lit stars, if you look out your window you can see me in your imagination waving from afar. In the distance I stand waiting for you with arms open wide, walking toward you to be by your side. You are the discovery of fine things preserved just for my gratification, the final destination in my journey, no longer left broken hearted lying on a gurny but risen to health & prosperity by our God who reigns eternally. I understand the difficulty that my past may bring to you & me but there's nothing we can't overcome cause we have the power passed down from the Almighty. You and I are destiny.

A Poets Devotion

We all can come off the top of the head with words of no discretion,
flip nouns and verbs into octaves with inflections,
in our thoughts there's dreams and recollections
that become lyrical manifestation
of our wildest imaginations. It is the art of creation,
the ability to use personification
the means to exhibit justified eradication
of positive and negative emotions.
We move like the ebb & flow of the ocean
with very little commotion. Our gift resides withing our hearts & souls not just our minds.
This here is the definition of a poets devotion.

In My Soul

My soul screamed like it was being murder like it was being burned alive and I smelled the smoke from within my insides and I wonder why, how, who set my soul ablazed I thought it was locked tightly away so therefore I was amazed that some arsonist snuck through my defenses and caused a smoke filled choking haze within my soul.

As it smoldered and spread I tried to think when I was mislead when was the flammable reagent fed to my soul. It hollared and my ears bled and the blood was a black as soot not red. I knew my sould was not yet dead cause I was still in pain hoping that it would rain to put out this raging flame inside me. I was an inferno from the inside out and rage took over my senses because of my ignorance, I needed to know what this was about. What did I do to deserve this torment, what did I not do, how was I wrong so I could repent. I wanted to be drenched by a great flood, I was seeking a showering that Is supposed to come from above but I needed it inside, I needed my soul to be covered like a glove either that or doused with a wet towel, arrrrgh the pain is unbearable, my insides feel like they are about to burst! am I under a curse? this pain is the worse aahhhhh my goodness can't anyone hear my soul wailing can anyone see me ailing, I am kicking and screaming with arms and legs flailing! There's an unending ailing from what I am missing

My muse

‎​There's a burning desire in my soul the flame emitted is pure blue from the intrigue I am feeling from you, ‎​This pain I"ve felt came from the absence of my muse. I guess I am addicted amnd need to use but I mist not tale her for granted. I must not abuse Though you leave my soul burning like an unending lit fuse, You are mystery and myth to me, far more beautiful than the earthly goddess nerfertiti, your light burns in the essence of me like the stars in the heavens looking down on me on us and I feel that this is umjust that inside me burns a strong lust The strongest desire I've felt in months. I am the moth to your flame, a wild animal you must tame simply with your presence you calm the raging fires in me, douse me flames of extasy, My muse you inspire me to pour out the words of my soul